Margaret, just read your post.  i truly am soo sorry! :'( just reading about that makes me just wanna cry too... Please never be afraid to call at anytime, anyplace, anywhere. i really wanna help you out luv. i cant even imagine what that must be like. pardon my language if you take offense but it sounds like hell. i know this sound cheesy but this is my fav scripture and its helped me when i feel down or need help.(Psalms  23) i'm not gonna ask you to change your attitude or try harder cause i know you and that you've tried to make it work out and you've tried hard.  but please if there is anyway possible i can ease this burden please let me know and i'll share it with you and lighten the load. it hurts to see you sad. and almost kills me knowing that you feel like that... please call asap! or tell me when you can and i'll call you. just know you always have someone here that loves you. really luv i want to help.. please just let me know how i can.

hope to hear your beautiful voice soon.

yours forever and always,

Tyler

p.s. i love YOU